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Lack of Sleep a Luxury?

Last week, my daughter asked me what time I woke up.  I told her that I woke up at about 5:45 AM.  Then she looked at me and asked, "Why do you get to get up that early?"  She said she wished she could get up that early.  

Wait, what?  Why do I GET to wake up that early?  Was she kidding?!

Now, I’m usually fairly composed in most conversations.  This one…not so much.  I lost it for just a bit.  I didn’t yell (small win), but I did raise my voice and was quite animated (arms flailing about) as I unconsciously spewed forth my confusion.  What do you think I GET to do with all this “extra” time?  Do I just sit around and relax?  No!

I realized about 30 seconds into my rant that I was out of control.  I was reacting and not responding.  (There is a difference.)  Thankfully, becoming conscious of my reaction enabled me to terminate my tantrum pretty quickly thereafter.  I immediately apologized for my outburst and committed to thinking about why it triggered me.

I get why my daughter would want to wake up early.  What kid WANTS to sleep?  None that I know of!  My daughter is like the energizer bunny - she keeps going and going until you make her stop.  So, from her perspective, waking up that early in the morning would give her more play time before school.  Got that, but I’m not waking you up earlier than necessary, kid.

While I could just blame the outburst on not getting enough sleep the night before, which was completely true, I really wanted to give it further thought.  My introspection led me to the belief that I was out of balance early in the week, and that I still have some balancing to do.  I need to do my best to get sufficient sleep and family time.

My family means the most to me.  So, I made a point to take a break on Friday night and Saturday to ensure I got my family time in.  I’m also taking today to PLAN out my week, so hopefully the weeknights aren’t as busy.  We’ll see how this week goes!

Be open to what comes.

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