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In a Split Second

This morning my daughter came into my bedroom shortly after waking up.  She told me that today is Book Character Day at school, wherein the kids get to dress up as their favorite book character.  In a split second, I realized I was irritated.  I was irritated because today was a day that our schedule was a bit tighter than normal.  I was irritated because she didn’t communicate this interest last night so that we could plan better.  I was irritated because I was pressed for time and I also wanted to support her desire to participate.  In a split second, I decided to support her to the best of my ability by putting my irritation in check.  I was open to the possibility that maybe she could actually pull this off!

My daughter already knew the character that she wanted to emulate.  It was Posie the Kitten in Pink.  Given my daughter’s favorite color is pink, and this kitten is decked out in pink, I didn't have a whole lot of heartburn about the outfit.  I continued to get ready for work and was fretting just a bit about the schedule.  I was concerned she wouldn’t be done with her “costume” before we had to leave.

While my daughter completed her ensemble, I got word that my mom was in the hospital.  In a split second, everything changed.  In a split second, I was no longer irritated about my daughter’s last minute interest in a school activity.  In a split second, I was no longer concerned about getting to work on time.

Everything can change in a split second.

My daughter did end up pulling off her book character outfit.  I was actually quite impressed with her creativity and what she pulled off in such a short period of time.  I beamed with pride.  I was tremendously proud of her!  I was also proud of myself.  Had I communicated my irritation, the situation would have certainly turned tumultuous, and ultimately it would have dampened, if not killed, her interest in dressing up.  I wanted to support her in this endeavor because I think these types of events help boost her confidence.

As for my mom, we remain in the very uncomfortable space of the unknown.  It’s easy to jump to conclusions.  It’s easy to fear the worst.  But, I’m doing my best to live only in the moment.

It’s not time to worry yet.
— Harper Lee

Be open to what comes.

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