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NORTHERN VIRGINIA, CONSCIOUS DIARIES IS A BLOG BY TINA UNRUE.
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Final Inquiry

This is the sixth post in this series.  If you want to catch up, read Decisions, DecisionsInquiry (pt 1)Inquiry (pt 2)Inquiry (pt 3), and Inquiry (pt 4).

What excites me about writing the blog post?

Everything!  I love to write.  I enjoy the process immensely, even though there are times of frustration when I feel like I'm a little stuck.  It always ends up working out, though.  I try to trust my intuition to know what I should blog about, and to what extent.  In addition to writing, it's fun to be honest and share something that I am excited about with the world.  (Ok, like a whole five of you.)  In all seriousness, I know that putting it out there for the world to see means that my daughter will see it one day and others may stumble upon it and find value.  I am hopeful that my musings help her someday live a more meaningful life, and start that journey at an earlier age than I did.

What about the blog posts causes distress?

When I don't know what to write about.  I know all 365 days won't be filled with meaningful and life-changing moments.  That's life.  I have to be ok with that.

This is bringing up something else for me.  Sometimes I find myself comparing Conscious Diaries to other blogs.  Blogs I follow don't post as often, but have interesting and meaningful/helpful content.  I need to remind myself that this is, in essence, my diary about consciousness and how it can manifest daily.  It captures my successes and failures around increasing my awareness in my life.  That's not relatable to anyone else's blog...at least I don't think it is.  I need to stop comparing CD to other blogs or what value it might be offering to others.  Provided I'm writing something meaningful to me, and hopefully one day to my daughter, that has to be enough.

Imagine not writing a blog post for today. What feelings come up?

Relief and anxiety.  Relief because it's one less thing I feel I have to do.  Anxiety because I feel like it's something I GET to do.  There are times certainly when I feel like I have to do it. Those times are few and far between, though, and are usually on days where I just don't know what to write about.

How does intuition play into this?

Intuition plays a pretty significant role in blogging daily.  I feel like I was called to do this.  So if I don't blog daily, then I feel like I'm letting my intuition...the universe...God down.

Imagine that the blog is done. What feelings come up?

Excitement.  Accomplishment.  This assumes that I posted for 365 consecutive days.  If I end it prematurely, I think I'd regret not seeing it through.

I think my inquiry is done.  My final thoughts on this tomorrow.

Be open to what comes.

My Decision

Inquiry (pt 4)