I appear to have an opportunity to obtain something I've really wanted for a while now. As with everything, there are pros and cons to consider.
Between yesterday and today, three things have happened that seem to propel me towards the opportunity. Because of my consciousness, I am very aware of my feelings about all this. I'm excited because, again, the possibility is quite real that I'm going to get something(s) that I've desired for a while. But, I'm also in a space of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Parts of me are expecting something to happen that makes the opportunity bust. Other parts of me are holding on to my current situation, fearing what I'll lose rather than focusing on what I'll gain.
I encountered some folks just recently who spoke negativity about opportunities before them. Why do we do this to ourselves?
While I haven't verbalized negativity about my opportunity, my thoughts are in the gutter. While words haven't manifested, my thoughts have. My energy is not in an open minded space. It's in a fearful space. Again, it's defaulting to this opportunity going to pot and/or focusing on what I will lose.
Living in the present isn't always easy. Being human isn't easy. Trusting God isn't easy. That's why I practice this thing called consciousness — so that I can be aware of my feelings, thoughts, behaviors and actions; so that I can be in touch with my intuition.
My lesson today...practice what I preach and be open to what comes.