Today was a really interesting day.
For one thing, I was way more focused and felt more like myself compared to my "off" day yesterday. Thank goodness!
Late morning, I received a decision on an application to participate in a program at work that I had submitted over a month ago. The decision? A big fat, "nope."
I was bummed. I initially blamed myself and doubted the strength of my write up. That must have been it, I told myself. It wasn't good enough.
Thankfully, I quickly stopped myself from analyzing why I wasn't selected. (Yes, I was disappointed. Yes, it hurt to be told I didn't make the cut.) But, I know there was no benefit to running down the answer. I wasn't going to get to one anyway. Any "answer" would just be a hypothesis anyway, a story I tell myself to have it make sense. I settled into the thought that it was a blessing in disguise and that maybe there's something else in my future. Still a story, but one I'd rather read over and over vs I inhale at writing. :)
Fast forward to early afternoon. I met with someone in my organization who was doing something similar to me. (By way of background, my project has an aspect that I love, but it's not until the middle of the project. I wasn't looking forward to all the initial stuff.) Upon meeting him, I explained my project and explained that I came to learn more. I didn't want to duplicate efforts, nor did I want to reinvent the wheel. We chatted for quite some time and he described in great detail his efforts, successes, and mistakes. To make a long story short, we both came to realize that our strengths complemented the other. He was great at the initial stuff, and I at everything else. He had given up trying to find someone to assume the project and thought he'd be doing it all himself. We were both pretty stoked.
In that moment, I sat in amazement. Did that just happen? I couldn't believe that, yet again, God, the Universe (whatever you want to call it), was handing me exactly what I wanted/needed. Seriously. How does this continue to happen?
Now, don't get me wrong...I'm not complaining! I question this because I want to know. I honestly don't feel like life was this easy prior to the past couple of years. I'm so blessed and I would love to know why/how this all works.
As I reflected, I had a ton of questions. Has God always given me what I needed, but I was oblivious? Was I just not appreciative/grateful? Was I just not looking through the appropriate lens? Or is it that my life is truly different now as compared to a couple of years ago? Am I now in God's favor? Am I now on "my path" and being on your path equals ease?
I still remain really curious about all this. Yes, it can be regarded as coincidence, or even luck. If it were just this incident, I'd likely think that too. But, this stuff happens to me a lot. I mean, A LOT.
My reflection on this event, and others like it, won't stop here. I'll continue to think about today's events and all of the other amazing things that have happened, seemingly effortlessly to align with my desires/needs.
But, just in case it's all a dream, nobody pinch me.
Be open to what comes.