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NORTHERN VIRGINIA, CONSCIOUS DIARIES IS A BLOG BY TINA UNRUE.
HER POSTS EXPLORE WHAT IT MEANS TO BE CONSCIOUS AND ITS IMPACT IN HER WORLD.

I Gave Up

My daughter started school a couple of weeks ago. It was a hard week. We all were trying to settle back into a school routine, both in the mornings and in the evenings.

Cliff notes version of last week, I lost my temper like I haven't lost my temper in a long, long, long time.

Trust me. I was patient and kind at first. I was sympathetic to the fact that my kid didn't want to return to school already. We were all in a state of change. However, with all the push back, attitude, crankiness, and flat our rudeness, I couldn't take anymore. I snapped.

This consciousness project has me on my toes. Every. Single. Day. I stay as present as I can and reflect upon things that happen during the day.

Upon reflection, I see that I gave up. I gave up being patient. I gave up being kind. I gave up being a role model.

Since looking at it that way, I have to say it's been easier for me to keep it together. When I feel the tension building, I warn her that the direction I feel the discussion is headed is not looking bright. Or, I walk away if I must.

I'm not claiming some grand victory here. We all lose it from time to time. But I am happy that the second week went way better than the first...and that I didn't give up.

Be open to what comes.

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